Monday, March 30, 2009 10:08 PM
fcknsht
i dun wnt its over , please :'(
x3mly in sadd & rili sick condition .
i hate myself .
sumtyms i wish i can born again , clean , without any sin .
sumtyms i wish i cud stomp my head til i can 4gt evrythn ive done .
sumtyms i wish i will read quran evry week or evrydy lyk b4 , b4 i turn lyk ths .
sumtyms i wish i dun evn knw wats cigs .
sumtyms i wish i cud b modest .
sumtyms i wish i cud listen to my prnts .
sumtyms i wish my prnts love & proud of me .
sumtyms i wish i cud b wit him 4 eva .
but pathetically , allah tests me wit all ths tests .
i must change 2 achieve all ths crazy wishes .
myb oda ppl thnk ,
pd , ure gud bh , evn u smoke n all dat u still cn pray ? wow ur gud . at least u pray .
but da truth ,
wat 4 i pray if i do all dat shit ??
i'll try 2 fin quran by ths yr .
pray 4 me so i cud b better .
pls . its 4 my own benefits .
im fckn not gud .
i wish i died in shahid .
i remember i dreamt dat i died last nte .
& i wish its true .
ano i shud b careful 4 wt i wish 4 but .
ano Allah will always there if we need help .
i hope Allah will help me .
p/s : im not wat u thnk i am . yea .
u hurt me A LOTTT .